i wonder if this will become a usual routine....
waking up at 3am almost all mornings
study-school-eat-study again-n a bit of dance-study again
strength-less n worn-out
expecting excellent results....
but guess what.... u flunk almost all of them
if this is going to b my routine for all whole of 2 yrs.. i rather not continue it. but the problem is, i dun even noe the answer...
ppl, stop telling me to work hard... i just feel uncomfortable hearing that for the umpteenth time.... how to work hard? aint i working hard now? whats the problem?
sometimes u really get so disappointed that u get angry with everyone around u, u get angry with urself, u get ange with the world, u get angry with ur life...
checked my results juz now in class... n my CT wants to see my parents.. i m freakin worried... i duno what they will say n stuffs... i think i will cry again.. went to the toilet ALONE... n juz sobbed.... it's terrible... to cry alone n having no1 by ur side.... i read shy's n kris's sms.... my tears juz flowed....
in pehaps similar situation as some of u, i searched thru my phonebook n hope 2 talked 2 some1... sadly, none i've found... i onnly managed to sms shy n kris n then, i dint reply their sms... duno how to ....
will there be a single person tt will truly understands me? noe how worried i am.... the sadness is not only superficial but its truly deep... like how roots have penetrated into the ground? that as wind blows n rain drops, it willl still be so inside... difficult to remove...
will there be one tt will c me thru as i try to hide my emotions? the cheery, pleasing, cheeky me, is actually distressed, troubled, sorrowful, hurt n painful?
no use letting other knows what u r feeling, how much effort put in... no use convincing others to believe in you....
when u actually are losing faith in urself, when u actually feel so hopeless, when u actually feels like giving up...
Do you knnow how i feel?
dancing all night long _ *
9:57 PM
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